Thursday, 31 January 2013

I really wonder what I did wrong?

I sometimes really wonder what I really did wrong and how you can love someone so much but they choose to let you go? It's really heartbreaking having to deal with the same situation day in and day out and always feeling confused about were you stand because one minute he loves you and the next minute your something else. Life is so unfair sometimes, the person you love the most is the one that hurts you the most. I've been running around in circles wondering why we can never get it right? I do all I can to make him see that our life together would be a happy one because he would have all of me and I'd be forever doing what makes him as happy as he makes me.The moment he calls you something else, your heart sinks and leaves you wondering why after all we have shared, he has to be so cold? To tell you he loves you and the next to call you something else. How can someone be so confused or are they just stringing you along, how long is this supposed to last, should you have closed the door or just give him more time because some people are so slow? But have you not given him enough time already? Loving him truly can be so cold and letting him call you something else is just a weakness in the depth of your soul because you can't put your foot down and say, "No I have had enough!"

I thought of you the other day

I thought of you the other day
The way it used to be
The way you told me you loved me the first time
And the way we held hands, hugged and kissed
How that all went away
The way it all changed
Even the way you used to look at me
I remember that place
And the sweet things you used to say
Now I don't even know the place or space
I'm in right now
Is it real or something,
I built to shield the pain?
This bubble that shields the pain
I thought of you the other day
As tears streamed down
The hollow apples of my cheeks
The way you laugh, the jokes you used to say
That became phrases of everyday
I thought of you the other day
And the day you loved me
And when it all went away
Smiles turned to tears
And tears turned to aching pain
Oh how things have changed
How you have changed me
How you have changed you
But today is just another day
That will become thoughts of you
I will call
The other day

Par/By Chiedza Mebe

Wednesday, 16 January 2013

Moving on

So the day you see the man you love and then you realize that life is not so bad without them. You miss them yes, but what can you do if they don't want to hold you the way that you want to hold them? It really hurts sometimes but they want to go on with their lives without you. I just hope that moving on for them won't be something they will regret later on. I guess although I'm moving on I am still waiting patiently. Moving on doesn't mean you don't love them anymore.